fly away

it's haze.. i can't see the true path clearly. someone...help me?

***

You came to me,

In that hour of need,

When i am so lost..

So lonely...

You came to me,

Took my breath away,

Showed me the right way,

The way to lead..

***

trial passed. lagi berapa weeks je nak hadap yang betul. cuak? no heart feelings dah. tak tahu nak rasa apa. rasa tu ada. tapi tak tahu rasa apa? apa aku cakap ni? :'

kosong.

orang selalu cakap, the empty heart is because of the sins are too many. so the solution is....?

pray.

kadang-kadang sebab kita dah rasa selesa dengan keadaan kita yang sekarang, hampir kita lupa sebenarnya banyak lagi benda yang perlu kita baiki. such as, habit.

ramai je kalau nak dilistkan yang bila beli makanan especially air, terus je minum. tak duduk. bagus ke tabiat tu? tanya je..

lagi... kalau nak diikutkan kita ni terlalu mengikut surrounding. i take that as a hardship sebab memang kita ni dikelilingi suasana yang tak menentu, dengan berjenis manusia nya lagi jadilah kita seperti sekarang..

tapi kita boleh ubah, kan?

rilek dulu..

banyak benda yang kita silap pandang. merasakan ianya betul so kita pun macam... oh orang lain ramai buat so bnda ni tak salah pun. hey siapa kata kalau solat cukup tapi couple tu betul?

basic things macam ni pun dah ke laut, ke mana sebenarnya yang kita tuju ni?

*sigh*

***

You filled my heart with love,

Show me the light above,

Now all i want,

Is to be with You.

You are my One True Love,

Taught me to never judge,

Now all i want,

Is to be with You...

jangan salahkan pendosa kalau takde tangan cuba nak tarik dia keluar. 

okay.

not to judge. don;t judge.. not good. not good.

actually this is my midnight thoughts.

my mind are messed with the exam and now i want to take a cut.

if you are stress of this, you may beat it. just open something else.

***

i've so many problems. once before i found this one pretty good sentence.

talks about.

"don't say, o Allah i have a big problem , let say, o problem, it;s not a matter bcoz i;ve Allah with me,"

aku penat. i had it all enough. penat nak istiqamah, penat nak keep on doing charity.

bila buat benda baik, mulalah ramai orang cakap belakang. bila nampak aku buat salah sikit ah sepuluh jari semua tuding salah kat aku. ok macam ketara sangat lah, besar sangatlah salahnya.

tapi bila satu masa.. terkesan dengan satu ni.

'apa kesan kehadiran kau pada ummah?'

habuk tara.

lepastu aku nekad. i have to change. i gotta change my thought. life as human is really against what you want, what you dream to have, dream to be..

because we are only slave.

nothing worth with us. kita takda apa yang kita boleh bangga. semua yang kita ada, those are Allah;s. jika ditakdirkan, esok lusa kejap lagi pun boleh hilang. termasuklah orang yang kita sayang.

kita takda hak nak membantah. 

melainkan menurut.

kata nak jadi ibadurrahman.

kata kat kawan, nak berpimpinan till syurga?

kan..

***

if i will, i want to escape myself out of world.

tapi nak duduk mana?

sampai bila nak lari dari masalah?

sampai bila nak berfoya ni?

You came to me,

In a time of despair,

I called on You,

You were there,

Without You,

what would my life mean?

To not know the unseen,

The worlds between.

way too hard..

seems we have no time,

no chance.

but do we remember?

"And when my servants ask you concerning Me, the surely I am very near, I answer the prayer of the suppliant when he calls on Me, so they should answer My call and believe in Me that they may walk in the right way."

(2;186)

***

surely there will a time, for those who wants.

untuk kita?

harapnya masih ada.